In time
I’m feeling much better now
And soon I’ll be totally over you
I know I can’t forget you
But I can forget all the feelings
I used to have for you
Same ground
I thought I was already okay. That I won’t be affected whatever I will hear or learn about you. Yes, I still love you, but I thought I already accepted that you have someone new in your life. I guess I was wrong.
I saw pictures of you with her today. I didn’t noticed I was already crying while looking at your pictures. She seems so happy and inlove. I should be the one in those pictures. I should be the one feeling happy and inlove. I should be the one in your arms. I should be the one in her place. But where I am now? Here, alone, crying, asking so many what if’s.
Seeing pictures of you with her made me realize one thing, I’m still hurting.
But I need to be strong or at least pretend to be strong. Act as if nothing is wrong.
Broken Heart
To you,
Though I still love you, I need to end this. If I really want to move on with my life, I need to do this. I know I have promised you that we will be friends. I have promised you to still communicate with you. I did promise you that because I was still holding on to your words when you said that you still me love. That you still care for me. But the way I see it now, I don’t think that you still love me. I don’t think that I still matter to you. I don’t think that you still care for me. Its hurting me so much to know that you are moving on with your life. It hurts so much to know that you can’t resist her.
I sacrifice a lot for you. I gave everything for you. I did everything for you. But I guess thats not enough. I don’t regret anything that I did. If I will have a chance to do it again, I would still do everything because I love you so much eventhough I know that our end will be like this.
Time for me to move on and have my own life. You have yours now, and I think you’re loving it. I need to cut all our means of communication. I need to delete everything i have to communicate with. Sorry but I really need to do it, coz as long as i have them there will be an urge to talk to you, and I know I can’t resist it. If your name don’t exist in my emails, networking group or anything like that, I don’t have a way to reach you. I need you to be out of my system.
Sorry if I am breaking my promise. I just need to do this for my sake. Goodbye.
happy thoughts?
Do I really need a happy thought so I can fly?
What if all my thoughts are negative?
Just that mean I can’t fly?
stucked on you
i do try to be busy
to take you off from my mind
but no matter what i do
i can’t think of anything but you
why do i need to go all through this
i just want to forget you and go on with my life
i don’t need anyone to tell me what i should do
coz i know what i need to do
but no matter how hard i try
part of me still hoping somehow
i hate you for making me feel this way
i hate you for making me believe there is something special in us
i hate you coz showed me love
i hate you for treating me this way
i hate myself for believing in you
i hate myself coz i still love you
” The ordinary girl finds ways to shut down, dull all the feelings. The princess remains open no matter what. “
That’s right, I am an ordinary girl, I can shut down and dull all the feelings.
I have a protective shell that unintentionally built it when I was young. I’ve learned to be emotionally detached from my surroundings and to people around me. I am one of those who can easily get along with any crowd or any group, but I am not really in to the group.
I find it hard to express my feelings. To say what I feel.
When I was young, I believed that if they have no means of knowing my feelings and emotion, they could not do anything to hurt me. Though they can still hurt me in some ways, I don’t usually show that I am hurting. If they don’t know that I am hurting, it is better for me. The more I am emotionally detached, the more I feel secured.
For most of us, it’s being weak, for me its security.
I can only open up to few people, to my friends since high school. However, it took a long process before I can open up to them. They are the only one who made me feel that I can tell anything to them without judging me. They are the only one who made me feel that I can cry to their shoulders without asking the reason why. They are the only one that can really know if I am hurting. Because I know that no matter what happen, they will stand beside me. Or they are just on my back supporting me. It is enough for me that my friends know what I am, who I am, and what I feel.
I don’t care what people would think about me. As long as I am emotionally detached to them.
I am hurting right now, but nobody knows about it. Even the person that hurts me doesn’t know that I am hurting. Even the closest person to me in this place doesn’t know.
This is what I am. I don’t show when I am hurt. I don’t show my real emotion. Why?
Because I don’t want them to know that someone succeeded in hurting me. I don’t want them to know I am hurting because of someone. For me, I feel intimidated to someone if they know that I feel pain because of them. I feel they are superior because at one point, they have hurt me and they know that they have hurt me.
Are You Ready For Love?
A good relationship isn’t a game you play or an ego trip you take. It is about love
and two people. Loving someone can give us the greatest joy we can ever know and
it can hurt more than we can believe too. When it does not really hurt when that
person did something disappointing to you, but really hurts when you see that
person in pain and sadness, then you know you truly love that person.
Loving someone means you should be ready to experience heartaches and happiness at
the same time. That’s the reward and that’s the risk. Unless we are willing to
experience it, we will never really know what it’s like to love and be loved.
Sharing love is probably the most valuable and meaningful experience a person
can ever have. And there’s a difference between being in love with someone and loving someone.
It’s the difference between a love that’s fickle, wild and
short-lived and one that’s tender and passionate, nurturing and lasts a long time.
The first is easy. The second, the one that really matters to all of us, takes
work — because it’s about keeping a relationship.
Loving someone takes efforts. We have to be able to communicate with each other.
Nobody can read anyone else’s mind. We always presume that our partner knows what
we think and feel. Maybe in time we might be able to predict or sense each other’s
thoughts but it’s never perfect and takes time to develop.
Getting the chance to love and be loved by someone is a blessing or a gift. Respect
him/her for who he/she is, and not what you want him/her to be. Everyone
is pretty and special in his/her own special way. No one is perfect. It is
true love which closes the gap of imperfection to form a smooth surface
of acceptance for each other. True love sees and accepts a person for who
he/she is. It is also true love which makes a person change for the better.
The power of true love to a person is undeniable.
A relationship needs commitment too. What is love without commitment
from each other anyway? It’s like principles and values. Everyone has
them but they only mean as much as we are willing to stand for them.
The same goes for our commitments to relationships, and the person we love.
“Love is like an antique vase. It’s hard to find, hard to get, but easy to break.”
Every day, everywhere, people fall in love…but just how many of these
relationships are self-sacrificing love, and not just relationships
which are formed only for the intense feeling of falling in love?
I know hundreds of friends who say the magical words “I love you”…
but more often than not, the truth is just — I am IN love with you.
There is a difference between being in love with someone and loving
someone. If a person says he/she is in love with you, he/she means
that he/she likes you for who you are now and he/she fell in love
with you because of the present you.
This kind of love is temporary and lasts only as long as the fairytale lasts.
When fairy godmother comes in at midnight to whirl us back to reality, we see
the heartache of such a relationship…where both were only IN love with each other.
But if a person says he/she loves you, he/she means that he/she
loves you unconditionally for who you are now, who you were in
the past and who you might be in the future. When he/she says he/she
loves you and really means it, you have to ask yourself if you love
him/her too or if you’re in love with the idea of being in love.
It is very hard to see the difference through logical thinking.
Let your heart guide you. May you be bless on
your soul-searching journey for your soulmate.
