Same ground
I thought I was already okay. That I won’t be affected whatever I will hear or learn about you. Yes, I still love you, but I thought I already accepted that you have someone new in your life. I guess I was wrong.
I saw pictures of you with her today. I didn’t noticed I was already crying while looking at your pictures. She seems so happy and inlove. I should be the one in those pictures. I should be the one feeling happy and inlove. I should be the one in your arms. I should be the one in her place. But where I am now? Here, alone, crying, asking so many what if’s.
Seeing pictures of you with her made me realize one thing, I’m still hurting.
But I need to be strong or at least pretend to be strong. Act as if nothing is wrong.
Broken Heart
To you,
Though I still love you, I need to end this. If I really want to move on with my life, I need to do this. I know I have promised you that we will be friends. I have promised you to still communicate with you. I did promise you that because I was still holding on to your words when you said that you still me love. That you still care for me. But the way I see it now, I don’t think that you still love me. I don’t think that I still matter to you. I don’t think that you still care for me. Its hurting me so much to know that you are moving on with your life. It hurts so much to know that you can’t resist her.
I sacrifice a lot for you. I gave everything for you. I did everything for you. But I guess thats not enough. I don’t regret anything that I did. If I will have a chance to do it again, I would still do everything because I love you so much eventhough I know that our end will be like this.
Time for me to move on and have my own life. You have yours now, and I think you’re loving it. I need to cut all our means of communication. I need to delete everything i have to communicate with. Sorry but I really need to do it, coz as long as i have them there will be an urge to talk to you, and I know I can’t resist it. If your name don’t exist in my emails, networking group or anything like that, I don’t have a way to reach you. I need you to be out of my system.
Sorry if I am breaking my promise. I just need to do this for my sake. Goodbye.
happy thoughts?
Do I really need a happy thought so I can fly?
What if all my thoughts are negative?
Just that mean I can’t fly?
I’ll never get over you getting over me
I can relate to this song…
I wish I’ll be over this phase soon…
stucked on you
i do try to be busy
to take you off from my mind
but no matter what i do
i can’t think of anything but you
why do i need to go all through this
i just want to forget you and go on with my life
i don’t need anyone to tell me what i should do
coz i know what i need to do
but no matter how hard i try
part of me still hoping somehow
i hate you for making me feel this way
i hate you for making me believe there is something special in us
i hate you coz showed me love
i hate you for treating me this way
i hate myself for believing in you
i hate myself coz i still love you
