Is it an ordinary thing for a woman to be accused of being a whore?
That at one point in her life she will have that humiliating experience?
That happened almost a week ago. I just can get over it.
” The ordinary girl finds ways to shut down, dull all the feelings. The princess remains open no matter what. “
That’s right, I am an ordinary girl, I can shut down and dull all the feelings.
I have a protective shell that unintentionally built it when I was young. I’ve learned to be emotionally detached from my surroundings and to people around me. I am one of those who can easily get along with any crowd or any group, but I am not really in to the group.
I find it hard to express my feelings. To say what I feel.
When I was young, I believed that if they have no means of knowing my feelings and emotion, they could not do anything to hurt me. Though they can still hurt me in some ways, I don’t usually show that I am hurting. If they don’t know that I am hurting, it is better for me. The more I am emotionally detached, the more I feel secured.
For most of us, it’s being weak, for me its security.
I can only open up to few people, to my friends since high school. However, it took a long process before I can open up to them. They are the only one who made me feel that I can tell anything to them without judging me. They are the only one who made me feel that I can cry to their shoulders without asking the reason why. They are the only one that can really know if I am hurting. Because I know that no matter what happen, they will stand beside me. Or they are just on my back supporting me. It is enough for me that my friends know what I am, who I am, and what I feel.
I don’t care what people would think about me. As long as I am emotionally detached to them.
I am hurting right now, but nobody knows about it. Even the person that hurts me doesn’t know that I am hurting. Even the closest person to me in this place doesn’t know.
This is what I am. I don’t show when I am hurt. I don’t show my real emotion. Why?
Because I don’t want them to know that someone succeeded in hurting me. I don’t want them to know I am hurting because of someone. For me, I feel intimidated to someone if they know that I feel pain because of them. I feel they are superior because at one point, they have hurt me and they know that they have hurt me.
Are You Ready For Love?
A good relationship isn’t a game you play or an ego trip you take. It is about love
and two people. Loving someone can give us the greatest joy we can ever know and
it can hurt more than we can believe too. When it does not really hurt when that
person did something disappointing to you, but really hurts when you see that
person in pain and sadness, then you know you truly love that person.
Loving someone means you should be ready to experience heartaches and happiness at
the same time. That’s the reward and that’s the risk. Unless we are willing to
experience it, we will never really know what it’s like to love and be loved.
Sharing love is probably the most valuable and meaningful experience a person
can ever have. And there’s a difference between being in love with someone and loving someone.
It’s the difference between a love that’s fickle, wild and
short-lived and one that’s tender and passionate, nurturing and lasts a long time.
The first is easy. The second, the one that really matters to all of us, takes
work — because it’s about keeping a relationship.
Loving someone takes efforts. We have to be able to communicate with each other.
Nobody can read anyone else’s mind. We always presume that our partner knows what
we think and feel. Maybe in time we might be able to predict or sense each other’s
thoughts but it’s never perfect and takes time to develop.
Getting the chance to love and be loved by someone is a blessing or a gift. Respect
him/her for who he/she is, and not what you want him/her to be. Everyone
is pretty and special in his/her own special way. No one is perfect. It is
true love which closes the gap of imperfection to form a smooth surface
of acceptance for each other. True love sees and accepts a person for who
he/she is. It is also true love which makes a person change for the better.
The power of true love to a person is undeniable.
A relationship needs commitment too. What is love without commitment
from each other anyway? It’s like principles and values. Everyone has
them but they only mean as much as we are willing to stand for them.
The same goes for our commitments to relationships, and the person we love.
“Love is like an antique vase. It’s hard to find, hard to get, but easy to break.”
Every day, everywhere, people fall in love…but just how many of these
relationships are self-sacrificing love, and not just relationships
which are formed only for the intense feeling of falling in love?
I know hundreds of friends who say the magical words “I love you”…
but more often than not, the truth is just — I am IN love with you.
There is a difference between being in love with someone and loving
someone. If a person says he/she is in love with you, he/she means
that he/she likes you for who you are now and he/she fell in love
with you because of the present you.
This kind of love is temporary and lasts only as long as the fairytale lasts.
When fairy godmother comes in at midnight to whirl us back to reality, we see
the heartache of such a relationship…where both were only IN love with each other.
But if a person says he/she loves you, he/she means that he/she
loves you unconditionally for who you are now, who you were in
the past and who you might be in the future. When he/she says he/she
loves you and really means it, you have to ask yourself if you love
him/her too or if you’re in love with the idea of being in love.
It is very hard to see the difference through logical thinking.
Let your heart guide you. May you be bless on
your soul-searching journey for your soulmate.
Let’s listen to the voice
After you read it, listen to the voice of Joe D’ Mango. And fall in love with it…
Echoes of our Hearts
We would start to search for answers, and try to find where love has gone wrong. But in the end, we find ourselves where we started. We cannot question love when it has its own reasons. Love will always be as it always has been. Silent. Mysterious. And deeply profound.
Many of us believe that love is forever. That love never dies. Only to be disillusioned in the end, when we find our hands empty and our hearts longing. We’ve mistakenly have looked at love as a need to be fulfilled. But love is only a gift given to us. We should not hold it in our hands, for we may never find the strenght to let it go when it decides to leave. We should only embrace its warmth and glow while it lasts, and then freely open our arms when it’s time to say goodbye.
When we fall in love with someone, we don’t want that feeling to end for it is everything we are and everything we wanted to be. We pray that love will stay and grow in our hearts. But if it doesn’t then we should never let our lives be taken by it for life should not end where heartaches begin. There is always a reason why we have to move on. When we have to say goodbye to the feelings we wanted to stay forever let us not wave our hands with a heavy heart, for love will have to set its wing free and find a place where it belongs.
We may have lost it, but then again when we close our eyes and listen to the echoes of our hearts, we will hear that feeling resounding silently forever. Then we’ll know that it has never left us, for the good that we have become because of love will always stay. It will always be there reminding us that we should be thankful and happy not because we have lost love but because for once in our lives that feeling lived in our hearts and made us happy.
By:
Joe D’ Mango
