Dead Ends
I like dead end signs… I think they are kind… they atleast have the tendency to let you know you’re going no where. – bug bunny
” Minsan, pasaway talaga ang tao, hindi mo naman inaaya, darating at sasali sa mundo mo. Ang masakit, kung kelan apektado ka na sa kanya, saka pa sya aalis tangay ang mundong dating sa iyo lang. “
” Kinatok mo ang puso ko, pinatuloy kita. Pero tumigil ka sa pinto, nag-isip ka pa yata! Tanong ko lang, tutuloy ka pa ba? Kasi, hindi na ako magpapapasok pa ng iba kapag nasa loob ka na. ”
” In the cruel world of love, I’ve learned that promises aren’t contracts, kisses aren’t assurance, sweet words aren’t guarantees, big hugs aren’t bonds and that nothing is permanent in this life. One day, he’s mine, the next day, he’s gone. Last night he was sweet, the next morning, he’s insensitive. Yesterday, I cried, tonight, I despair, but tomorrow, I’ll be strong. I’ve tried so hard, it still seems not enough. Life is so unfair! “
” Just because I come off a little strong doesn’t mean that nothing’s wrong. “
“why do all good things come to an end?”…
this is my status on my YM! for a couple of days. and I got a lot of reactions from my friends’ list. one conversation I had with a collegue went like this:
my friend (6/25/2007 2:08:33 PM): It don’t have to, just keep them close to you and it won’t
me (6/25/2007 8:43:10 AM): i don’t understand it
me (6/25/2007 8:43:21 AM): sorry
my friend (6/25/2007 8:44:18 AM): Ok you said why do all good things come to an end and I was just answering that question
me (6/25/2007 8:44:29 AM): ok
me (6/25/2007 8:44:46 AM): its about my status
me (6/25/2007 8:45:11 AM): well all good things really come to an end
me (6/25/2007 8:45:22 AM): that’s the reality of life
me (6/25/2007 8:45:32 AM): nothing’s permanent
my friend (6/25/2007 8:45:52 AM): Why should it? When you can control it
me (6/25/2007 8:46:16 AM): you cannot control life
my friend (6/25/2007 8:46:45 AM): Yes you can if it’s something you really want
my friend (6/25/2007 8:47:42 AM): The only thing you can’t control is death and all other thingsare within your control
me (6/25/2007 8:48:12 AM): you cannot control destiny
me (6/25/2007 8:48:47 AM): even if you really like something but if it is not destined to be yours forever
me (6/25/2007 8:49:04 AM): it will not be yours
my friend (6/25/2007 8:49:10 AM): Maybe you can’t but if you really want your destiny to go the way you want it to be you can control it if you want to
my friend (6/25/2007 8:50:25 AM): I’m sorry to hear you have limitations
me (6/25/2007 8:51:59 AM): even if you did all the things you need to do for a thing to stay in your life, but if destiny don’t permit or allow it to stay, it won’t stay.
my friend (6/25/2007 8:53:16 AM): Then it wasn’t a good thing in the first place and life must go on
me (6/25/2007 8:54:28 AM): yeah I agree that life must go on, and hey! lesson learned, but it doesn’t necessarily mean thatit is not a good thing
me (6/25/2007 8:54:50 AM): Can i ask you something
my friend (6/25/2007 8:55:33 AM): Is this problem back home for you
me (6/25/2007 8:56:05 AM): No, its not
me (6/25/2007 8:56:26 AM): just some thought after hearing a song about it
my friend (6/25/2007 8:58:08 AM): So this is all about a song
me (6/25/2007 8:58:30 AM): yup, just a song…
yeah! good things come to an end, but hey! not just good things, all the things. we just make an emphasize on good things because we are enjoying it that’s why we don’t want to end it. we want to keep it. we want to hold it forever, we don’t want to let it go, we feel bad to let it go. we want to do anything just to make it ours forever. and if we didn’t succed in doing it, pain and hurt is what we found.
but if bad things come to end, we feel relieve. we want to thank who-ever-it-was for ending it.
things do end, good or bad, but it doesn’t necessarily means that you’re left with nothing. memories are left behind. lessons are learned in those things. you can keep them with you.
expressing through quotes
from now on, i’m going to post some quotes or lines from a song that will best describe my mood for the day on a daily basis… sometimes i just can’t write, there’s a lot of things going on in my mind that seems everything is mixed up.
here’s for a start…
” it hurts to think that you will
never gonna be mine…
but it hurts more when realized
that I know it from the start… “
for a friend…
You deserve to be happy, kapatid. For a long time you’ve been a good friend, a good daughter, and a good sister, even a good cousin, a good niece, and a good granddaughter. You’re such a nice person. It is time for you to be happy. Go for your own happiness. Don’t mind those people around you.
If they saying that they only want the best for you, who are they they know what is the best for you?
And if they really know what is the best for you, would it makes you happy. Is having the best in your life makes you happy?
It is only you who knows what is the best for you. It is only you who knows what makes you happy. You’re waiting for this for a long time. And it is worth waiting for. Now that you have it in your life, don’t let it go. Don’t let anyone take it away from you. You deserve to be happy. You deserve him. If they really want the best for you, they will trust you and let you have your own decisions. You’re old enough to decide for yourself. Don’t let anyone decide for you. You already know what is right from what is wrong. I believe in your moral values. Have faith in yourself.
Stop thinking for the other people’s happiness, start thinking for your own happiness. I know you are happy even before without him in your life, but we both know deep down inside your heart, something is missing. Now that you have the chance to fill that missing part in your life, don’t let it go, grab the chance. You’ve done your best to be a good daughter and a good sister, now it’s time for you to do things on your own. I am not telling you to go against your family, I am just telling you to stand for your own decisions. And there is nothing wrong with that.
You know that whatever will happen, we are on your side. You don’t need to ask for our approval. Whatever you decided to do, we are here to support you. And you know that you can always count on us. What makes you happy is what makes us happy.
i just want to cry…
there are times when you feel sad, but you don’t know the reason why you are sad. you want to cry, but you don’t know why you want to cry. that’s happening to me right now. i feel so sad, but i don’t know why. i want to cry, but i don’t know why would i cry.
maybe i was just thinking a lot this past few days. my emotions are all inside of me. i can’t let them out. coz i don’t have an outlet. friends who will let me cry on their shoulder without asking stupid questions and won’t look at me as if i am stupid because i am crying for nothing are not here. so far away from me. i don’t know what to think and do. i am so confuse. so confuse that all i want to do is cry.
this is how it goes…always…
this is a song from the ” High School Musical: The Movie “. I found it cute for me who used to believe in fairytales, magicspells, and wishing on a falling star.
When there was me and you
It’s funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I’m standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don’t really care
I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I’m not sleeping
A wish upon a star
That’s coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you
I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I’m only left with used-to-be’s
Once upon a song
Now I know your not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don’t come true
Cause now even I can tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you
I can’t believe that
I could be so blind
It’s like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn’t mind
Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you
I’m just bored
” I would rather have had one breath of her hair, one kiss from her mouth, one touch of her hand, than eternity without it. One. ” – City Of Angels
” After all… I’m just a girl, standing in front of a boy, asking him to love me. “- Notting Hill
” Maybe God has a bigger plan for me than I had for myself. Like this journey never ends. Like you were sent to me because I’m sick. To help me through all this. You’re my angel. ” – A Walk to Remember
” I am nothing special; just a common man with common thoughts, and I’ve led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten. But in one respect I have succeeded as gloriously as anyone who’s ever lived: I’ve loved another with all my heart and soul; and to me, this has always been enough. ” – The Notebook
” Love means never having to say you’re sorry. ” – Love Story
” Look, I guarantee there’ll be tough times. I guarantee that at some point, one or both of us is gonna want to get out of this thing. But I also guarantee that if I don’t ask you to be mine, I’ll regret it for the rest of my life, because I know, in my heart, you’re the only one for me. ” – Runaway Bride
” It’s a wonderful thing, as time goes by, to be with someone who looks into your face, when you’ve gotten old, and still sees what you think you look like. “ - The Bachelor
” You cannot leave everything to Fate, boy. She’s got a lot to do. Sometimes you must give her a hand. ” - Ever After
” You think I’m gorgeous… You want to kiss me… You want to hug me… You want to love me… You want to smooch me… You want to hug me.” – Miss Congeniality
” That thing, that moment, when you kiss someone and everything around becomes hazy and the only thing in focus is you and this person and you realize that that person is the only person that you’re supposed to kiss for the rest of your life, and for one moment you get this amazing gift and you want to laugh and you want to cry because you feel so lucky that you found it and so scared that that it will go away all at the same time. “ - Never Been Kissed
” Mama always said, life was like a box of chocolates. You never know what you’re gonna get. “ - Forrest Gump
A Change of Heart
“The heart that loves is always young” – Greek Proverb
Grandma got Grandpa out of bed and helped him to the kitchen for breakfast. After his meal, she led him to his armchair in the living room where he would rest while she clean the dishes. Every so often, she would check to see if he needed anything.
This was their daily routine after Grandpa’s latest stroke.
Although once a very active young man, his severely damaged left arm, difficulty walking and slurred speech now kept him housebound. For nearly a year he hadn’t even been to church or visit family.
Grandpa filled his hours with television. He watched the news and the game show while Grandma went about her day. They made a pact- he was not to leave his chair or his bed without her assistance.
” If you fell and I threw my back out trying to help you, who would take care of us? ” Grandma would ask him. She was adamant about taking care of themselves and living independently. The Brooklyn brownstone had been their first home and held wonderful memories. They weren’t ready to leave it behind anytime soon.
Immigrants from Ireland, they met and married in America. Grandma was friendly, outgoing and unselfish; Grandpa was reserved, a man devoted to his family. But he wasn’t big on giving gifts. While he wouldn’t think twice about giving my Grandma the shirt off his back, he subscribed to the belief that if you treated you’re wife well throughout the year, presents weren’t necessary; so he rarely purchased gifts for her.
This has been a sore point in the early days of their marriage. But as years passed, Grandma realized what a good man he was. And, after all, anything she wanted she was free to buy herself.
It was a cold gray February morning, a typical winter day in New York. As always, Grandma walked Grandpa to his chair.
“ I’m going to take a shower now.” She handed him the television remote. ” If you need anything, I’ll be back in a little while.”
After he shower, she glanced towards the back of Grandpa’s recliner but noticed that his cane was not leaning in his usual spot. Sensing something odd, she walked toward the recliner. He was gone. The closet door stood open and his hat and overcoat was missing. Fear ran down her spine.
Grandma threw a coat over her bathrobe and ran outside. He couldn’t have gotten far; he could barely walks on his own.
Desperately she scanned the blocks in all directions. Small mounds of snow and ice coated the sidewalks. Walking safely would be difficult for people who were steady on their feet, much less someone in Grandpa’s condition.
Where could he be? Why would he leave the house all by himself?
Wringing her hands, she hardly felt the frigid air as she watched traffic rush by. She recalled overhearing him tell one of their grandchildren recently that he felt he was a “burden“. Until this last year, he had been strong and healthy; now he couldn’t even perform the simplest of task.
As she stood alone in the street corner, guilt flooded her.
Just then, Grandpa walked around the bend corner. Head bowed, eyes focused on the sidewalk, he took small cautious steps. His overcoat barely draped the shoulder of his bad arm, his cane and a package filled his good arm.
Desperate to reached him, Grandma raced down the block. Relieved to see that he was okay, she started to scold.
“I only left you alone for a short while. What did you need so badly that couldn’t wait? I was so worried about you. What on earth was so important?
Confused and curious, she reached into the brown bag. Before Grandpa had the chance to explain , she pulled out a heart-shaped box.
” It’s Valentine’s Day,” Grandpa explained. “I thought you might like a box of chocolates.”
A gift? All this worry for… candy?
“ I haven’t bought you a gift in a long, long time.” His stroke-impaired words warmed the winter wind.
Tears flooded Grandma’s eyes as she hugged his arm to her chest and led Grandpa back home. She shook her head slowly.
It just goes to show, she thought, it’s never too late for romance.
Denise Jacoby
I was reading “Chicken Soup for the Bride’s Soul” last night, this story caught my attention.
Thoughts
this is kinda cheezy, but this is what i really feel right now.
All The Love In The World
I’m not looking for someone to talk to
I’ve got my friends, I’m more than O.K.
I’ve got more than a girl could wish for
I live my dreams but it’s not all they say
Still I believe (I’m missing) I’m missing something real
I need someone who really sees me…
(Don’t wanna wake…) Don’t wanna wake up alone anymore
Still believing you’ll walk through my door
All I need is to know it’s for sure
Then I’ll give… all the love in the world
I’ve often wondered if love’s an illusion
Just to get you through the loneliest days
I can’t criticize it
I have no hestitaion
My imagination just stole me away
(Still…) Still I believe
(I’m missing) I’m missing something real
I need someone who really sees me…
(Don’t wanna wake…) Don’t wanna wake up alone anymore
Still believing you’ll walk through my door
All I need is to know it’s for sure
Then I’ll give… all the love in the world
Love’s for a lifetime not for a moment
So how could I throw it away
Yeah I’m only human
And nights grow colder
With no-one to love me that way
Yeah I need someone who really sees me…
(Don’t wanna wake…) And i won’t wake up alone anymore
Still believing you’ll walk through my door
You’ll reach for me and I’ll know it’s for sure
Then I’ll give all the love in the world
(Don’t wanna wake up alone anymore…)